MULTISENSORY QUEER STORYTELLING · R&D CALL OUT OUT
Good Enough
You've carried something for a long time.
WHAT THIS IS
An interactive story box.
A hidden life inside it.
A handcrafted box containing fragments of a life: objects, images, sound, text. One person enters the experience and witness the interior world of an older gay man — and the hidden self he carried alongside his visible life, for years, sometimes for decades.
Duration
Fifteen minutes
Venues
LGBTQ+ safe spaces, community halls, library rooms etc.
Format
One person
Reach
Touring widely across Scotland
WHO THIS IS FOR
Queer men over 50.
Particularly the ones who don't usually see themselves in work like this.
- ✓ You rarely see your experience reflected in arts or theatre work
- ✓ You're not publicly out, or not fully, and you navigate that carefully every day
- ✓ Your experience of being queer was shaped by working-class life, or communities where it had no language or no room
- ✓ You lived through the AIDS years and carry what that time left
- ✓ The public face of gay life has never quite felt like yours
You've survived. You've adapted. You've built strategies for getting through. And you've rarely been asked what that cost.
If any of that is you — this is for you.
A NOTE FROM THE DIRECTOR
I grew up in the North East, working class, in a world where the newspapers on the kitchen table told me — without ever saying my name — that who I was becoming was wrong. At school I learned to be quiet. Not because I had nothing to say. Because quiet was safer.
There is a whole generation of men who did the same thing. Who came of age under Section 28, through the AIDS crisis, through decades of being told that who they were was not enough. Men who built extraordinary survival strategies.
Good Enough is for those queer men. What you carried was real. It had a name. And you were not alone in carrying it. The stories of men in this community are not illustrative material. They are the foundation.
John Darvell · Director, NOCTURN
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“One thing that what was rather confusing and puzzling was the frequency with which other people, you know, usually people outside the family, people who weren't neighbours, people that you would meet in other situations, friends of the family that hadn't seen you for a while or friends of neighbours and so forth, they confused me with being a girl. I don't remember feeling particularly hurt or shocked with that. Maybe a slight indignancy. Feeling of being indignant.”
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“It was only when my mind started to develop and my body to mature, that I began to think, “There's something odd here. I'm not quite like my friends. I am different. And in a way I was kept apart from them – especially at school. When we got out of school, everything was fine, but in school, amongst the others, amongst the group, I was kept out. I was like a 'tiùrragan' [a small heap, such as might be left over on the shore, an insignificant thing]. I didn't understand why. What did they see in me? Maybe they saw something in me that they didn't find in themselves, or perhaps something in me frightened them in some way.”
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“Well, you see, because I want to go back to this distinction between male and female that was really a very strong, everything, there was that that dichotomy was drummed into you. So anything that wasn't masculine about you meant that you were, you must be feminine. And that was somehow a failure to me. I I didn't know how to, I didn't know how to be anything else than than I was. I don't remember saying, right, well, I'm going to make friends with the bully because or tell him jokes or win him around that way, just to save, to save me. My mind didn't work that way. And so I was bullied at school.
And, I remember, I think I must have been in about 12 or 13 quite early in secondary school in the boys' toilet, in a cubicle, closing the door, and there was my name on the inside of the door. Robert is a poof. So I knew it was me and I thought, Lord, love us, what's going on here? What does this mean? And it was obviously something pretty devastating to me at the time. So, and yet, you see, I didn't, I didn't, I didn't change my behaviour. What I did do is I think I became more introverted.”
Extracts by kind permission from the OurStory Scotland LGBTQ+ oral story collection.
AN IMPORTANT NOTE BEFORE YOU SHARE
Some of what we’re asking about sits close to things that may have been hard to carry. That’s the nature of this project and we don’t want to hide it.
You don’t need to share anything you’re not ready for. A small memory is as valuable as a large one. A single sentence is enough. You can contribute anonymously. Your name will never be attached to anything without your explicit, separate permission.
If anything this brings up feels like too much, Switchboard is there.
Switchboard is a confidential helpline run by and for LGBTQ+ people.
0800 0119 100 | switchboard.lgbt
Free. Confidential. Available every day, 10am-10pm.
SUBMIT YOUR STORY
.Questions? goodenough@nocturncreative.co.uk
SCOTLAND ONLY · GAY, BI & TRANS MEN OVER 50
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Join the online cohort
Creative Collaborator · 10 places only
Image Ben Qureshi, Illustrator
We're looking for a small group of queer men over 50 in Scotland to work with us as collaborators — not performers — helping us develop the movement and sound of the work across seven online sessions.
Nothing that requires dance experience or any particular fitness.
Applications close end of July · Sessions run August & September
JOIN US ONLINE
We'll be in touch within five working days. Questions? goodenough@nocturncreative.co.uk
IF A SESSION BRINGS SOMETHING UP
We will make sure every session has a named person available, separate from the facilitation, who you can contact afterwards if anything needs holding. That contact will be shared at the start of every session.
You can leave a session at any time. You can withdraw from the group at any time. You will not be asked to explain why.
If anything this brings up feels like too much, Switchboard is there.
Switchboard is a confidential helpline run by and for LGBTQ+ people.
0800 0119 100 | switchboard.lgbt
Free. Confidential. Available every day, 10am-10pm.
Made by.
John Darvell - Director, Choreographer & Performer
Christopher Hunt — Creative Technologist
John Chambers — Composer
Lou Cope — Dramaturg
Sean Hall — Filmmaker (Vivid Affect Productions)
Louise Mather — Filmmaker
Calum Main — Digital Animator & Visual Artist
Ben Qureshi — Illustrator
Helen Moon — Project Manager & Curatorial Steer
Bob Hughes — Safeguarding Partner (Switchboard)
Andrew Wilson — Producer, Spin Arts
Dr Kerryn Wise FHEA - Research Fellow - Immersive Arts, University of the West of England
Chloe Spiby Loh — Immersive Arts Producer
Special thanks to CoStar providing technical support as part of their Collaborative R&D programme.
Supported by.
Immersive Arts | Switchboard | Cove Park | Birnam Arts | OurStory Scotland | Sanctuary Queer Arts | The Work Room | Citymoves Dance Agency | Art Link Central